I could feel it in my body before I could name it — that familiar ancy-ness that shows up when something wants to move, but hasn’t yet found its direction.
I was in a bit of a funk the other day. Not the dramatic kind — just that low-level overwhelm that comes when you’re trying to get all of your ducks in a row and can’t quite feel the ground beneath you.
I felt overwhelmed — building a new business, wondering what the next right step was. I was also feeling displaced. I don’t have my retreat center right now. I don’t have a private office. I’m currently working from home, learning again what systems and structures actually support me — what helps me feel grounded enough to reflect, listen, and do my work in the way I’m meant to.
There was an ancy-ness and agitation in my body.
A restlessness.
And I knew I didn’t want to sit down at my computer just yet.
Listening to the Body Instead of Forcing Answers
So after yoga and meditation, instead of pushing myself into productivity, I listened to that ancy-ness. I took my dog, Toby, for a walk to the park.
I ended up sitting by a tree, perched on a rock, looking out over the lake and doing my best to simply be. As I was about to get up and leave, another dog approached Toby. Then a woman came out of the woods and said, “Jennifer… is that you?”
We re-acquainted. She had attended some of my ceremonies and experiences in the past, but she looked different. I noticed a shift in her energy — her light, her aura, her smile. There was something alive and open about her.
She told me she had received my recent email about my new business direction — and that it made complete sense to her. That it felt like a natural, aligned evolution of what I’m here to offer.
Then she began sharing specific moments where she had learned something from me.
Unsolicited, she shared two examples of things I had done at past events that deeply impacted her — moments that shifted her perspective and changed the trajectory of her experience. She reminded me of another time when we ran into each other at that same park, and something I casually said helped her realize she wasn’t happy in her job. That moment became the catalyst for her changing course.
It was one of those interactions that stays with you.
How Guidance Arrives Through Embodiment
I didn’t realize how much I needed to hear that encouragement — or how much I needed the specificity of how my work, my way of being, had touched someone’s life in a meaningful way.
You never really know the impact you make.
What struck me most was this: I could never have orchestrated that conversation. There was no strategy or plan that would have led me there.
It required me to show up.
It required me to listen to my body — to honor its restlessness rather than override it.
To get outside.
To go for a walk.
To go to that park.
And then, literally from behind a tree, a woman I happened to know stepped into my field — carrying medicine for me.
This is such a clear example of what happens when we trust our embodiment. When we listen to the sensations in our body. When we honor restlessness, agitation, flow, and the need to move — instead of forcing ourselves to do what we think we should be doing.
What Enters Your Field When You Trust Your Body’s Wisdom
People come into our field for a reason.
And we enter each other’s field for a reason.
We all carry medicine.
We all have teachings.
We all have something to offer each other — and we usually have no idea until it’s been exchanged.
At the start of January, I decided to do something different. I decided to track the invitations in my journal — slowing myself down enough to write each moment down instead of letting it slip by. It’s helped me pay closer attention to the mystery in the moments that are teaching me a new way of being.
In my journal, I track and write down:
What the invitation is — who is inviting me to connect, meet, or do something together
Who shows up in my field — in the grocery store, in a text, or at the park
Where a connection with someone or something feels most alive
What animals cross my path
The list keeps growing.
And the more I notice, the more excitement and calm arrive. My nervous system begins to relax as it learns to shift from doing, making, and forcing — to allowing, noticing, and trusting.
Time and time again, this practice reminds me that simply showing up is often enough.
We are all connected to a unified field — always on, intelligent, and deeply personalized for what we need, when we need it.
A Practice for Trusting Inner Guidance
So if you’re in a moment of uncertainty, transition, or simply doing your best wherever you are, you might try what I’m trying:
Notice who crosses your path as you move through your day
Track the invitations and connections that get your attention
Notice where your body feels calm, drawn, or restless — and what happens when you follow it
Write down the insights, phrases, and ideas that come to you in dreams, the shower, on a walk, or during movement
The field is always speaking to you.
And sometimes the guidance you’re looking for doesn’t come from thinking or trying harder — it comes from listening more deeply, showing up, and trusting what’s meant for you to find you.
